I lost my Mother two weeks ago.
No longer will we see Heidi giving her first child words of praise in the comments section
It is 11:14 P.M. and I've been awakened by her gentle voice
"Write, Billy, Write"
I write tonight for each of you .. we know and share the pain of loss ..
It is inherent to our collective human experience.
I write tonight for Mom .. still her little boy ..
seeking approval .. striving to please
Loving Her
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Grief
Reaction to the irreversible ..
wave upon wave of helplessness
soaked in self pity
Wishing you were still here ..
I need your presence
selfish me
Not first nor last to feel crushing pain
but so certain my angst is unique ..
how very human
Horrific melancholy .. felt for the one set free ?
I think not ..
Grief is clearly me feeling sorry for me
March 15, 2018