Today I understand .. I wasn't ready for cats. I wasn't ready to sit quietly, be patient and let some other entity dictate the course of events. I wasn't ready to slow down, tune in, and share the experience as it unfolded. Understanding and enjoying a creature that didn't respond to commands escaped me. That I might actually have to acquiesce for the subtle dance required .. the give and take needed to establish a bond with le chat .. this was outside my realm of thinking.
Whether it is on Kauai with Baby & Vicious Bitch, in Paris with the beautiful black kitty at my friend's home, or on my Father's deck overlooking the San Juan River in Colorful Colorado with "Stinky", the yellow cat from next door .. cats have come to me.
Having a warm kitty snuggle up is such a wonderful gift. This feline recognition and acceptance is empowering self validation that I have grown, improved, and become a better man than I was before. I'm learning to hold back and be more receptive to the energy emanating from the other side of a relationship (aka the cat). What a great discovery this is .. carefully suppressing energy so the other party feels comfortable approaching. How fortunate I am to receive a priceless lesson from these beautiful creatures I hardly noticed before Baby came along. One must earn their love and respect with patience and self restraint .. leaving the pathway clear and open for them to approach ... fascinating.
I want to be just like a cat ... dancing that wonderfully subtle dance of understanding until we all feel comfortable to trust, love, and purr, purr, purr ...
Aloha et Au revoir,