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2/16/2018

I lost my Mother two weeks ago.

No longer will we see Heidi giving her first child words of praise in the comments section

It is 11:14 P.M. and I've been awakened by her gentle voice

"Write, Billy, Write"

I write tonight for each of you .. we know and share the pain of loss ..
It is inherent to our collective human experience.

I write tonight for Mom .. still her little boy ..
seeking approval .. striving to please

Loving Her

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Grief

Reaction to the irreversible ..
wave upon wave of helplessness
soaked in self pity

Wishing you were still here ..
I need your presence
selfish me

Not first nor last to feel crushing pain
but so certain my angst is unique ..
how very human

Horrific melancholy .. felt for the one set free ?
I think not ..
Grief is clearly me feeling sorry for me

Facker
March 15, 2018

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You

2/10/2018

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Life is not about me ..
vital lesson learned.
Time spent to self enlighten ..
precious moments burned

As I focus intently on growing ..
me and me and me
this path of higher knowledge
fails to set one free.

Self illumination
necessarily done
absolutely worthless
if only for the one

My existence .. this tiny life
how empty it would be
without the gift of others
If only filled by me

As I work to better me
please know it to be true
I only work on this flawed man
so he might give to you.

Facker
February 11, 2018

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Today

2/4/2018

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December 4, 2017 was the first day of my 40 day water only fast.

January 12, 2018 was the last day of my 40 day water only fast.

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As a result of this discipline, I received many wonderful benefits ..

Spiritual
Physical
Emotional

Some experiences are best kept to self in silence ..
Therefore, I have no intention of expounding.

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Those of you who have faithfully followed my writings for the last 7 years may
have noticed I've written nothing in the last 2 months.

I had some healing to do

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It has now been 3 weeks since completion of the fast
I've given much thought to what my first blog post would convey
what "fast received" gift I might share with you .. ?

The answer to that internal question appeared yesterday ..

Today

Today is the gift
Living happily Today

Relinquishing control
Accepting the events of Today

Not regretting yesterday
Not fearing tomorrow

Enjoying and being thankful for Today

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Fellow Human .. I Love You

I Wish You the Happiest Day Possible

Today

from Kauai to Paris .. and all places between

Facker
February 4, 2018

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