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"Goodbye Old Friend"

8/12/2017

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     Every ten years it happens.  Every ten years the process must occur.  Unlike those many times past,  this time the process was difficult.

     One would think renewing a passport to be a simple procedure.  Obtain the proper papers, have a new photo taken, then send everything, including my current passport, to the appropriate governmental agency.  Easy stuff, one would think, simple enough. This time, however, an unexpected element appeared.  This time, as I sat at the table putting my completed package together, emotion crept in.  "Crept" may be much too subtle a descriptor .. "Charged" may well be more accurate.  As I touched my passport prior to placing it into the envelope,  past  years of travel memories staggered me.  

     I won't bore you with personal travel stories here, that's not the point of this writing. What I do wish to convey is the intense feeling of panic which rushed through me immediately after  delivering my passport and accompanying paperwork to our post office.  The thought of not having my document renewed for any reason struck me like a lightning bolt.  The notion I could actually be restricted to my own country or repelled by another country, based solely on a diminutive travel booklet, left me shuddering.

     Factually, the process is easy.  It certainly doesn't take a rocket scientist to answer the straightforward questions posed on the renewal application.  All the usual personal stuff like age, height, weight, color of eyes, color of hair, etc. etc.  are automatic responses for morally straight and honest people.  I suggest the most difficult part of the procedure is driving to whatever photo shop you've selected in order to obtain the current regulation size passport photo for inclusion in your packet.  We've all gone through similar procedures our entire lives.  Every one of us has given countless applications for jobs, drivers licenses, rental applications, and the list goes on and on. Except for our address and weight, most of the descriptions remain accurate for our lifetimes. It is nearly an automatic response system we utilize for filling out questionnaires.

     I took my envelope to the post office and returned home.  On our beautiful mango table, where I put together my application packet, were three passport sized photos. The photo shop had taken four pictures  and one was now in the mail,  headed to the governmental agency folks who now hold my travel life within their powerful jurisdiction.  I picked up the photos and looked at myself .. my "self" who is now ten years older than that guy pictured on my last passport ..  "Sonofabitch!"

     I rushed to the post office, but the mail had already been picked up and my envelope was gone.  I was too late. The ladies behind the counter got a good laugh at my expense when I related the reason for wanting to retrieve my application.  They seemed to think everything would work out alright.  I, on the other hand, continue to live in a paranoid state, hoping some kindhearted, understanding being at the "passport place" will overlook the late realization of this man .. this man who ten years ago had the brown hair he notated on his passport renewal application .. this man who, upon closely inspecting those three photos and further inspecting his image in the bathroom mirror, did come to the realization there is no brown remaining.  I am left only with the need to discover which spelling to utilize .. is it gray or is it grey?  Of course it is a little late to know the spelling, since gray (or grey) was spelled B..R..O..W..N on my paperwork.

     As my passport renewal application makes its way, I happily remember days of passports before.  I bask in the glow of more memories than one man deserves. It was an honest mistake, writing brown instead of gray, and I feel confident I will receive a new diminutive travel booklet.  In the meantime, I recall that fellow pictured on my old passport, which is currently transitioning somewhere within the United States Postal Service, and I know I must say "Goodbye Old Friend" as this new man, with a mane of gray, humbly and gratefully takes his place. 
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Facker
August 13, 2017

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Toast, Peanut Butter, and Honey

8/10/2017

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What a beautiful day
unencumbered by seeking money
woke up to the smell of coffee
 toast, peanut butter, and honey

Stroked the cat watched her stretch
felt her appreciation
I gave more she returned more
we should practice that nation to nation

New hours await me
devoid of prearrangement
full of space for me to fill 
with happiness or estrangement

You may believe or not believe
it may seem oddly funny
but stroking the cat starts a perfect day
of ​toast, peanut butter, and honey



Facker
August 10, 2017

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Out the Other Side

8/5/2017

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Most precious is our gift of love
heart so freely given
expecting nothing in return
not agenda driven

No other pain hurts so deeply
like twisted knives and crushing bone
than empty starkness of  rejection
left standing speechless and alone

Broken remnants of shattered reality
ripping at the heart
where one hoped for reciprocation
the other tore it apart

Such is life .. C'est la vie
incredible magical ride
let them own their pain as you continue to love
gaining strength out the other side


Facker
August 5, 2017

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Fantastic - Fantastique - Fantástico

7/31/2017

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This year
I watched a parrot 
just south of Versailles ..
chickens on Kauai
wild ones that can fly ..
and blurry wings of hummingbirds
against the Tucson sky

I've listened to my favorite sounds
French floating in the air ..
politely soft and gentle
as if no one else was there ..
Mariachi horns proudly proclaim
joyous melodies ..
haunting notes of Hula lay the soul completely bare

Fantastic story tellers
Hula hips and hands ..
Fantástico the passion
where Mariachi stands ..
Fantastique French perception
creative thinkers all ..
each has surely gifted me far beyond my plans

Each day I trek this fertile earth
the choice is mine alone ..
search far and wide for more and more
or make each place my home ..
I declare unto my Self the lives I lead shall be 
fantastic - fantastique - fantástico
I do embrace all three

Mahalo, Merci, y Gracias !

Eternally Grateful,
Me 
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Facker
July 31, 2017

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Contemplation and Decision

7/29/2017

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When it is found
unexpected place
special provider of peace
giver of introspective solitude 

Embrace, embrace
precious moment given
rare gift for contemplation
focus included 

Silent opportunity
wherever it occurs
listen carefully 
those gentle winds of your soul 

Answers reside on those breezes
messages from higher and deeper
carried on wings of wisdom 
yours alone to be heard

When the moment is memory
that place again reality
  ours is to display gratitude 
 enacting courageous decisions


Facker
​July 29, 2017
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Big Toe

7/26/2017

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The need to write is with me
what, I just don't know
searching for the discipline
longing for some flow

Ideas dance across my mind
too quickly to be caught
frustration builds with passing time
while digging for a plot

What can I give my readers
what will bring a smile
quips and quotes and prose I seek
along the mental mile

Writers depression settles in
that place I fear to go
eyes drop slowly to the floor 
then gaze at my big toe

Ancient protrusion .. ugly illusion
forerunner of naked feet
clip it and paint it however you want
big toe will never be sweet

Let it be said and records be read
though beauty it will not display
big toe inspired one writer 
to record something witty today

Always beneath you holding your weight
constantly ready to go
when tumultuous distractions fill your plate
try gazing at your big toe​

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Facker
July 26, 2017
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Never Too Late

7/17/2017

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​Have you cried inside as the band played 
while wishing you were
singing

Can you recall that shudder of poignancy 
when your gift appeared 
flashing

Sudden awareness of squandered time
pissed away in previous life 
lost

Joyous tears of realized passion 
newfound clarity obtained 
unencumbered

Cry no more
your creative self has arrived 
Smiling

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Facker
July 22, 2017
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WHAT ?

7/14/2017

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Sitting here with the will to write
nothing coming to mind
ideas bounce radically off one another 
single thought hard to find

Focus focus nail it down
hocus pocus round and round
elusive brain inside does pound
with electrical charges and such

The will to please drives me on
glowing wildebeest appears
charging through the synapse junctions
creating unknown fears

More and more the tempest rages
driving me insane
'til boom then flash then silence
come brilliant light and flame

There it is upon my screen
appearing magically
created by turmoil born of passion
there for all to see

Frantic shriek of creative process 
words drawn from the gut
no title describes the push and pull
so I've simply named it  ...  What?



Facker
July 14, 2017
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Happy

7/10/2017

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​​The longer I live
viewing the others
the happier I wish to be​

Through observation
it is obvious 
happiness sets us free

Chains of hatred
ropes of angst
tie us to despair

Dancing, smiling, loving
where I want to dwell
is there


Celestial college
thrilling knowledge
lesson given for free

Happy state so simply attained
controlled entirely 
by me
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Facker
July 10, 2017
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Starkly White

6/30/2017

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I stare at the blank page
​it stares back for free
​who will win the contest
Starkly White or me

​Starkly appears receptive
​but he and I both know
what I place upon his surface
can die as well as grow

​Sometimes I feel him mocking
taunting me to fail
​"Go ahead" he says "I'm waiting
​ .. this ship is set to sail"

His Blankness is sometimes easy to love
​often easy to hate
​flaunting his greatest asset 
the ability to wait

I scratch my head and continue to stare
​thoughts raging through my brain
Starkly simply sits right there
driving me insane

​Click click the keys respond
when I capitulate
​and Starkly smiles that knowing grin
​as Bill creates his fate ...

​from Kauai to Paris .. and all places between


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Facker
​June 30, 2017


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